archer and olive journals

I received three journals a couple of days ago from archer and olive website. That's a lot of journals you might say but I have to tell you how much I love these AO journals. They are so beautiful. I got small one for sketch journal. The yellow one is plain white paper for calligraphy practice. Light blue/green is for my biography/memooier. Now that I have three journals, I hope I get some quiet time to use them and make some art. Early morning might have to be the best time to use them when everyone is sleeping. I usually get free mornings on Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays. I am very grateful that I got these journals and I have good health to do this at my free time. Not many people can say they are healthy. With corona virus, a lot of people are struggling emotionally and financially. I am so lucky that I don't have that program. I appreciate what God has given me. Good health, good family and a dohggggg.

less than a week left

I am going to back to work on June 1. I am excited but nervous too. will I be safe? will I be a good librarian? I don't know. we shall see. I miss working but I really enjoyed being at home too. did a lot of projects. one of my favorite things was planting. I hope I can see my flowers bloom. I also planted potatoes, maybe I get to see some in sept. I have to wait 120 days. it's like 87 degrees today. very hot, feels like summer.

Introvert to extrovert

If you met me when I was 10 years old, you would see a very shy girl who might say hi and goes to her room briskly. But now that I am 47, I am not afraid to say what I am thinking or what I think it's right. It's funny how I changed from a very introvert person to an extrovert mom with three kids. Sejin is 19, Yunjin is 17 and Taejin is 13. Wow, I cannot believe my kids are so grown now. It's strange to see them getting more and more independent. Sejin drives, Yunjin has one more year in high school, discovering art as her interest. Taejin excels at school with high scores in math and English. they are all happy and healthy. I am so lucky to have them in my life.

book discussion zoom

so we had another Monday night book discussion with Korean ladies through zoom. the topics we discussed was about missionary mind to help others (black people) in their community. we had seven attendees and the discussion was rather weak and uninteresting but I enjoy being with other Korean women/moms. we talked tor two hours and it was nice. I hope these Korean ladies remember me as a nice person to talk to but sometimes I might come across as direct, very focused, Mary pippin attitude to them. they seem to be very careful about what they say and how they want people to know them as. I am sure they have dark secrets. we meet one more time in two weeks and I hope I get to attend more of these zoom meetings.

Uneasy

I feel like there is a pattern of unhappy feelings when I am on my period. I get irritated and I want to stay away from boh. I try not to piss him off by staying away from him but I think he can sense it. He knows when I don't want to be near him while I am having my period. I can't even look at him sometimes because I get irritated. This is not a nice feeling that I want to have when I am around Boh. He didn't do anything wrong. He works so hard and he tries so hard. But why am I getting so irritated? This is so frustrating. I think I have to really have a bigger heart to forgive and forget. I must really change my attitude. or I will regret hurting his feelings.

Scatch Diary

I did second scatch diary. it is quite interesting draw small items on my own. it's thrilling and I get excited to try new things. I hope I get to continue doing it for a while....

new idea on sketch journal

I read last night that it might be meditative if I start a sketch journal everyday. I am going to try it on my bullet journal. I think it will help me with drawing and calligraphy. Kinda getting excited about it. So stay tuned.

mother's day

so I had a small expectation of "loving" gifts from my kids on Mother's Day. But it didn't happen. They all slept till 12 o'clock and just said "happy Mother's Day umma." Then I realized that it's perfectly normal to hear the phrase because I am not that loving mother to my kids. I yell at them often. I rush things. I get irritated. So I should have expected nothing from my kids. But when mr. came home from work, he gave me presents ordered from amazon. I got a face lotion, variety stencils and a sulwhasoo face wash. I had to tell mr. Koo to return sulwhasoo face wash because I don't need another one. then he got mad. Such a unpleasant Mother's Day. then we did zoom with louie family in Seattle and they were planning a tea party for ju. later on, we saw amazing pictures of the tea party on Facebook and my heart ached a little. my kids don't show happy gestures or warm wishes on my Mother's Day but the Louie family really celebrated it heart-warmly. I have to treat my kids with respect. otherwise, I am going to get no respect and love on Mother's Day. so much work to be done on my end.

brush pens

Thanks to Amanda, my favorite YouTuber, I started practicing calligraphy. I got a new set of brush pens, Tombow ABT Duo brush pens, and it's amazing. I love using them. I made the Mother's Day sign and it's great. there's something about creating brushy strokes up and down. it's so relaxing and calming in a very unique way. I enjoy doing calligraphy at night to relax my mind and remove my "too many" thoughts. I hope to do better in calligraphy when this quarantine is over.

No one listens

So everyone has been home, kids doing online classes, Boh does eBays, enjoys having all of the kids. Toby started the shock collar yesterday. It seems to work... We are using vibration mode for now. he jumps up when he gets the vibration. We had to use it three times last night because he was licking his paws. We got tired of telling me not to lick. I got the massage cane from virginia this morning. that was so nice of her. I was kinda surprised that she sent it. I guess sometimes, people remember your kindness. Anyway, I thought it was nice of her. This quarantine with kids is getting really hard sometimes. my kids are pretty independent but when they don't eat my food, I get ticked off. Like this pork katsu I made the other day. no one wants to eat it. Boh ate maybe three pieces in the morning but that's about it. Gosh, I don't they have any concept on money. They think we can just order stuff online and they just show up. I am only getting little money from the unemployment check. It should be interesting how we juggle money during this difficult time. we have to squeeze. we shall see. I hope I don't piss Boh off today as tomorrow is Thursday. it's going to be very challenging not to get him mad.

Church Book Discussion

I participated in the book discussion via zoom last night with twelve other Korean women from our church. we are reading "journey of inward and outward" by Elizabeth Connor. but book is very uninteresting but I enjoy being with nice Korean women for about two hours to discuss the book and talk about life during quarantine. it seems like everyone is very shy or at least not expressive when it comes to their personal life. but I think they are all going through same thing, cooking and cleaning and caring for their kids and the husband. I can't wait to see them again in two weeks in zoom.

saturday morning

I had the most productive morning today. I did some projects for my next videos for work and did a weekly spread. There's something about bullet journaling on saturday morning. my mind is clear and I get so creative and relaxing. also I enjoyed watching Amanda's saturday morning twitch video. it's so relaxing. I get so many ideas from Amanda. She is only 22 years old and I get inspired. is that wrong with following a 22 year girl on instagram? I don't think so. I think it's healthy for me to learn from someone younger, looking at the world in a different perspective.

math math math I spent about an hour helping Taejin with his math (8th grade math) and it was fun and also challenging. He gets it when I explain things right away. But he tends to choose answers too quickly and then make silly mistakes. but I think he is smart. he gets it. I hope someday he will remember this special time with me learning math from me. Even if he doesn't remember, I will remember.

Coloring brings peace I love coloring. I love coloring with glitter gel pens. It makes me happy and accomplished. I get the absolute perfect joy when I see my finished work. it glitters and I love it. When I was in high school in Sioux Falls, SD, there was a coloring contest in my math class for an extra credit. It was a picture of a Leprechaun for St. Patrick's day. I did my best to color and I won the contest. I was so happy. but at the same time, I felt guilty because I didn't need extra credit in my math class. Another project I really enjoy is bullet journaling. it just makes me so happy when I make simple spreads with minimal colors. I don't like making my pages busy. it's unnecessary if you ask me. My favorite YouTube, Amanda, does beautiful monthly spreads and weekly spreads and I get so inspired. She is turning 22 and I get so excited when she has a new video on tutorial techniques. I don't think age matters when it comes to being creative. i hope that someday I get to inspire someone with my creative ideas.... I did dandelion paint with a toilet paper, q-tips and a cotton ball. It was so much fun. Very easy and fun. I thought about doing a program for my patrons but I don't think it will work out because it takes maybe 10 minutes to finish. It's nice to try. Right? You can never go wrong with new craft ideas.

New Blog It’s April 27, Monday at 9:42 am to be precise. It’s year 2020 and we have been quarantined ourselves for more than a month. I’ve decided to write about how my day is going using WordPress. We have at least another month of quarantine and this is the perfect time to really express my inner thoughts and be creative. I have been cooking a lot lately and I enjoy it most of the time. The best part of quarantine is to have all my kids together at home. Boh has been working for only two days a week and it’s nice to have him home doing his writing projects with his music on. I don’t know when we all really get to go out to the world again. It’s so uncertain but I get to really appreciate what I have and not have to worry about anything else but enjoying every moment of being at home. Calligraphy I got super excited to find a free PDF of basic calligraphy from archer and olive website. I practiced and started doing my calligraphy. I find it fascinating to make beautiful cursive lines. I need a lot of practice but it’s a good start. I have some brush pens and I am going to try try some Korean words in calligraphy style. It’s very relaxing and calming when I do calligraphy. Also, I started a weekly spread in my bullet journal. It’s a simple layout but I really like it. Looking at the whole week, I feel like I am doing something productive. It’s all because of Amanda, the YouTuber. She is only 22 years old but I get a lot of cool ideas from her. I can’t wait for her to do another video on bullet journaling.